Anon… I’m sure you can’t afford therapy, which is probably the biggest injustice of all here. You are worth more, and work can have dignity. Use that extra time to make money without a boss. You don’t need college. Fuck the system. Learn to program or draw or make things. All of that requires time and probably money, but luckily you you have time, and there are resources on the Internet that allow you to learn on the cheap/free. You don’t need their shit… You can be independent. It’s hard, but your life is hard now, so what do you have to lose?
You gotta show up for yourself before you’re gonna get the girl my dude. Fix those open sores on your face and shave.