🐝bownage [they/he]

✨ 👋 Dutch queer person (they/he) | I like taking to people online

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Cake day: June 8th, 2023

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  • Not great! What was supposed to be a regular biweekly update with my team lead turned into me hearing I’m being let go. The company is dissolving my position. Apparently because they believe everything I did to set up data pipelines and structures is so solid they just need someone to maintain it now (which will be a third party).

    I definitely saw myself working there for a few years, now I’m back to looking for a job after just 1 year. Feels unfair and all the ‘it’s not personal, we love you as a colleague’ is definitely not helping at all.

    At least I won’t have to come out to them which I was dreading… I’ll just introduce myself with new pronouns at the next job ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

    Back to the LinkedIn hellscape it is

    Edit: forgot to mention that the worst part of this to me is definitely this week where we’re still discussing details/severance etc. and I can’t tell my direct colleagues yet. So here I am pretending everything is fine and I’m not actually super depressed about it until I can finally tell them next Tuesday.














  • Just came back from my parents to cuddle our family dog one last time before she’ll be euthanised this Friday. It was rough. I love her so much and she’s been there for such an essential part of my life (12-27). I’m going to miss her so much. I’m happy she got to have a long and happy life, but I’m also glad she won’t have to live in pain anymore - her back joints are completely worn out. Combined with the reduced vision and hearing and incontinence, I’m sure it’s her time to go. It’s just hard :(

    I remember having to unsub from r/dogpictures back when I was on reddit because 80% was just pics of ‘this is my dog who just died’ - it’s just too much. So I won’t do the same to you by posting pics here, but anyone who wants a cute doggo pic is welcome to dm me 🐕





  • Thanks Beehaw admins for continuing to have a vision for a better internet and for reminding me once again that there really are online communities that try to be and do good.

    I don’t post or comment a lot on Beehaw specifically, because I often feel like I won’t have the energy or head space to write something that really contributes to the community. It’s a strange sort of impostor syndrome related idea where I feel like the quality of content on Beehaw should be so high that I might not reach it without really trying. After all, I want the community to be the best it can be(e).

    That being said, I do read a lot of what’s going on here and I especially appreciate the frequent posters on the communities I subscribe to. Taking into account the issues with lemmy as illuminated by the Beehaw admins here, I feel some sense of urgency - I want to protect Beehaw, its content and its community of kind people from disappearing, or having its continuation be threatened, simply because it exists on lemmy.

    I guess in the end I just want to say that I really appreciate that the admin team is taking steps to preserve the wonderful community they have built and cultivated. While I haven’t been that excited about Beehaw potentially moving to a different platform, you make a very good case for it and I’d honestly be happy to follow Beehaw wherever it goes :)


  • I’m on book 1 so far but it’s already quite an accomplishment for me to be reading again. I used to read on my 1h train commute but since I got a new job and the train is only 20 mins anymore I pretty much stopped reading altogether. I’ve decided to get back into it anyway even though it’s only small boats at a time, and I’m really happy to be back :)