Not what you’re asking for, but it’s the same core principle as irony poisoning, I think. And, I know that shit is real, because it’s happened to me. It was kind of a core life lesson to me to watch what I consume.

It sounds like you actively enjoy your current gender identity. Most people who go on to change theirs don’t actively enjoy what it used to be, at best they generally just don’t feel connected to it. This was the case for me; I never felt manly, or enjoyed anything about being male. It didn’t bother me, but I never really connected to it.

Ultimately, the only thing required for you to be trans is that you decide you want to be; there isn’t some magic checklist of signs or requirements that if you meet, you’re trans. If you think you might be happier in life with a fem gender identity, it’s up to you whether or not to act on it.

Isn’t what we call a marathon just the last short leg of his journey, and he ran like 100-150 miles?

I mean, on the bright side, only two more years until I can kill myself!

That was a crossover promotion with archer, a show about essentially a giant dickwad james bond, voiced by the same guy who voices bob

Afaik, your body doesn’t feel a lack of oxygen, it feels the buildup of carbon dioxide, so any inert gas should do the trick. That said, I’ve avoided doing research into it for obvious reasons. Also, if someone interrupts me, then at least there’s some comic relief to lighten the mood when I start apologizing and crying in a chipmunk voice

Yeah, if I ever end up going through with it I’m gonna rig a gas mask to a helium tank with a one way outflow valve of some sort on the mask. Should be quick and easy, and no mess for anyone to clean up and no risk of hurting someone else like there is with firearms. I’m careful to not look into sources for those items or think or plan about how I’d put it all together, I do my best to keep myself safe. Never been able to stop the suicidal ideation though, so naturally I’ve thought a lot about different methods.

Make 2014 the guy that 2024 remembers, thinking about the depressed 2024 guy thinking about the happy 2014 guy, and that’s me. I knew I was in probably the best part of my life while it was happening and enjoyed it while I could. Not that I didn’t have suicidal thoughts then too but it was definitely the most fun. More 2015-16 though.

I think ants alone could pretty much wipe out humanity tbh. If they targeted the food supply chain and power grid, I’m not sure how much we could really do about it.

There’s a bottle and can deposit system in some states! You pay an extra 5c per beverage and get 5c back by returning the empty container. Only in like 5 states, but it works well. They don’t get reused, just recycled, but I think that’s pretty much the only way plastic bottles get recycled here, as most recycling is extremely contaminated.

Sorry not disagreeing with you about beverage container material choices! I just like chiming in with more info because I really enjoyed those packaging science classes I took. If I could live my life over again I’d do that instead of software tbh. Glass containers being reused instead of recycled is the dream, imo, but in the current US if you replaced all plastic beverage containers with aluminum ones that would still be a massive win. Transportation energy costs should only improve, so as time goes on that will matter less and less in the equation, but you can also achieve denser packing easier with aluminum packaging than glass. Glass containers don’t take non-cylindrical shapes as easily, or rather, cylindrical containers are far easier, more reliable to produce, and in general a lot more durable. If you swapped from plastic bottles to hexagonal aluminum ones, where you can achieve near perfect packing efficiency, that would be amazing. Far more containers per load, a roughly equivalent weight per container, made from a material that’s ACTUALLY recyclable, and (this I don’t actually know but I believe to be true) more easily automatically sorted out from contaminated recycling, that also has a financial incentive built into it to be recycled? That would be really really really good. Ultimately glass is better, the reusability is REALLY nice and glass also recycles incredibly well, and isn’t harmful as a pollutant, and also doesn’t require a questionably toxic (I believe BPA is an endocrine disruptor, but this isn’t something I know for sure) plastic lining? Oooooo yeah. That’s where it is.

Also just a fun fact, blue glass is like incredibly contaminating color wise, it only takes a tiny bit of blue glass to color a load of clear glass it’s being added to blue! Not a problem with the material, just cool.

Another fun fact, ever wondered why bottles have the bumps running around the edge on the bottom? It’s because the containers warp subtly as they cool, and with a purely circular base, this would give you an ever so slight saddle shape and it wouldn’t sit stably. With the bumps, there’s always at least 3 points of contact, so it’s stable!

Aluminum also takes way less energy and is much cheaper to recycle than to produce new! I think roughly around 2/3rds of all aluminum ever produced is still in use because of that. Don’t remember the exact figure, just remember it from my material science electives from college. Aluminum beverage containers usually have BPA liners, which is far from ideal, but as a material in general, it’s pretty nice

Yeah here in the US no containers get reused as is, due to corporate lobbying from pre 1990. Aluminum also is less energy intensive to transport since containers weigh less! Both are infinitely preferable to plastic containers.

I don’t know, I think cultures can definitely be rated by and advance in the category of how well the people living in it are treated. It’s interesting though, because the phrase “an advanced culture” doesn’t really feel natural to me, and I would interpret it as “a culture that’s progressed through time” rather than “a culture that’s objectively better”. I don’t know, I think it’s ok to think of, for example, Afghanistan’s culture as barbaric compared to more developed countries, based on their treatment of women. Though I think this is also starting to cross into a culture vs government discussion, it’s not like I have reliable information on how the average Afghanistan male feels about the role of women in their culture. Anyways, I think you’re absolutely correct that technological advancement is not equivalent to cultural improvement, I just think that some aspects of culture, most importantly to me how people are treated in it, can be relatively objectively rated, and personally I judge/rate cultures by that aspect.

On another note, to me, primitive is not the same as barbaric. I think some technological advancement is needed for a more “developed” culture, but being more developed certainly doesn’t mean better. For an extreme example, if you have a culture that hasn’t invented writing yet, I would say it’s less developed than one that has–while oral storytelling is still existant, I think some way of more permanently recording information is crucial to developing widespread, long standing culture.

I don’t know, I’m rambling at this point and I haven’t reread your comment in like a paragraph and a half so I have no idea how on topic I am. I hope this is something thought provoking and welcome your thoughts on how I see things.

Addon edit, written just after I hit submit–As this relates to the prime directive, I think even without the concept of cultural advancement, I think it’s still advantageous to let cultures and their technology change and adapt without external influence, from an interstellar perspective. For a planet to develop the technology to join the interstellar community and presenta planetary presence, to me, it implies that their culture has grown unified, and the fact that they haven’t driven life on their planet extinct in the process is basically a qualifying factor in their cultural… maturity? If you were to accelerate their technological development to speed their ascent to the interstellar community, it might make it more likely to still have… barbaric? tendencies that could be disastrous for them or other planets. However, trying to weigh that against the potential suffering you could mitigate by advancing them technologically… I don’t know, it’s certainly not black and white to me. In an extremely primitive analogy, giving a caveman a laser rifle might well result in the eventual extinction of their community. Not the greatest analogy, super oversimplifying, but that’s the gist of how I see it.

There is nothing better on this earth than a cat that enjoys tummy rubbins. My roomates cat loved them, and I would take like an hour long break from working on my senior project to destress and rub her tummy and scritch her chin. Her purrs weren’t usually audible, but you’d feel her romble and she’d be kneading away. She’s still alive and well, just me and her person graduated and went our seperate ways. I miss her a lot tbh. I’ll never forget hearing a funny noise, turning around, and seeing her lapping ranch dressing out of a container my roomate left out. She loves anything salty or greasy, but wouldn’t try to eat your food, just maybe lick it if you left it unattended. She did love to sniff my dinner though.

Sure it is. My current specific conciousness won’t get preserved, but guess what, I lose consciousness every night. From the perspective of the me that arrives on the other end, it’ll be just like waking up. They have all my memories, mannerisms, personality, there are no differences between them and me besides the fact that my conciousness doesn’t continue. From their point of view, they have continuity of existence. From their perspective, and from outsiders perspective, there’s no difference, for all intents and purposes they are me. Why would I feel bad about them living our life? “You are dead”. When I go to sleep, my conciousness ends, and in the morning someone who has my memories and personality and mannerisms gains consciousness. I really don’t see the difference.

Soulless likeness? If it has a perfect copy of my brain, then it has my soul and for all intents and purposes is me

Go through your body from the head down, tensing each muscle for a few seconds and then letting it relax, one at a time. Then, work really hard at really envisioning somewhere, seeing all the detail in your mind’s eye. Focus on it. Imagine feeling the physical sensations of being there. The gentle sway of a hammock, the warmth of the sun radiating down on your face. Giving your mind something to focus on lets it stop being so active, and lets it relax. It’s like having the tv on late at night putting you to sleep.

With the physical relaxation from the tensing and loosening and the mental relaxation, sleep should come much easier. It does take practice though.

Hmmmmm… Maybe every enterprise has a q “secretly” working in engineering and everyone pretends they don’t know?

Porn star called roxy raye! Super hot, has done some extreme anal stuff that honestly inspired me a bit to try it, she’s done some kinkier stuff as well, I’m honestly more an erotica person than a pornstar person but definitely a fan of her. Unfortunately she was in a really serious car accident. She’s ok afaik thankfully, but doesn’t do porn any more. Really should have recognized the gender envy from watching her for what it was but hey

Yeah, she’s like, the only pornstar I’ve ever looked for specifically tbh. Goals tbh